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Thursday, January 15, 2009

The Silver Lining

I thought it was something on the top of the roof.

The pain started a few days ago. Regretfully, I am used to pain and so I brush it off not wanting to pay attention to it. If I pay attention to pain I might have to face the cause of it and I’d rather not.

So I blamed the back pain on sitting down too many hours. Of course, my family blamed it on running too much! Not a chance.

Then I saw the little bubbles and I called my friend, a nurse. Shingles, she said immediately. One sided, pain in the back on line with rash in the front. Tiredness, feverish, burning sensation…yeah, shingles.

I did a quick reading and found the reasons for it to be aging, injury or stress.

Aging…that’s a matter of perspective
Injury…other than a few surgeries, no injuries
Stress…none in the last 4 or 5 weeks.

Maybe it is a cumulative effect of one of the most stressful years of my life that 2008 was. But thankfully, I ended it with a switch of attitude, or a change in emotions or both. I don’t consider my life stressful right this minute when the shingles have appeared.

So as I tossed and turned in bed in pain watching the hours go by until I could take another ibuprofen, I indulged myself in some self pity. I am tired of pain, of surgeries, of health issues. But as morning came I realized how lucky I am. I have had some issues, no doubt, but it could be so much worse and it is not. Look for the silver lining.

In the midst of winter I realized there was in me an invincible summer -Albert Camus