Many if not all writers have a figure who personifies their feelings throughout their writing careers. Often it has been a lost love or someone who inspired such intense emotions that a print was left in their written words.
Despite the style, who expresses feelings in their writing will at times do so in anger, at times disdain, at times sadness and others frustration. Different words, different scenarios affected by the mood but at the end the recurring themes.
Pablo Neruda like many others wrote often about relationships and heartbreaks. One of his best known pieces Twenty Poems and a Song of Despair is one of them. The strength of his passion fueled his creativity and many of his beautiful unforgettable poems came out of that period in his life. Had he not loved and lost, he might not have written as intriguingly.
I wonder if It was perhaps easier to immortalize her with his words than it was to let her know what she no longer wanted to hear and I wonder if he ever wished he could remove some of the poems he made public, those where the words elicit the pain of his heart which immortalized his own grief. “I can write the saddest lines tonight….” I wonder if she wished she could remove those poems from the public even if the public never knew who she was.
Anyone inspiring someone’s writing may feel at some point “enough already”. But I would think it is recomforting to know we have been loved than not. Is an apology necessary for having loved so much?
Maybe writers hold on to their story far longer afraid to let go of the last thing they have, the memories.
When the writing refers back to the ones we have loved and more so the ones we hurt without, it is because in spite of it all, a part of them remains.